Until recently, I never fully grasped the idea that “the creative process is ugly.” And why many Creators say that is important to step back and take breaks. (For more on this read Everything I Know by Paul Jarvis)
The month of December for me is like trying to pound the square peg into the round hole. I know what I want and what I need. However, I am fully aware of what I am actually going to get. And every year, that “chasm” seems to be widening. It has also been the year that can be summed up as being set to the musical framing and concepts of a Pink Floyd album. Communication breakdowns. And the seismic “shifts and rifts” in many of my relationships at this time. Which in most cases it was inevitable.
When things are too much for him comedian Bill Burr says, “I’m tapping out.” And this time of year is not meant for everyone. Just watch the evening news, between terrorists and shoppers there aren’t many “shiny examples of humanity”. And this time of year is never practiced with “moderation”.
So for the next month, I am stepping back from my engagement with social media (Facebook, Twitter) and all of its seasonal noise for this time of year. I cannot say completely but it will be dramatically reduced for the next month. For the most part, I just need a break from it. Catch up on reading time. Finish the half written blog posts that piled up. See what ideas are remaining on the notepads. Actually watch the documentaries in the Netflix queue. Are all amongst the things that I need to clear up and out.
On this Veteran’s Day, I was remembering the opening scene from the movie Saving Private Ryan.
I want to comment on this opening. I remember seeing this in the theater and sensed that this was not going to be your typical “John Wayne” style of a WWII movie. The flag is shown with the sun backlighting it. The music is very mellow compared to the old war movies where the music is more of an upbeat “March to Battle”. The Old Man walking and you can tell he may have survived the war but time still has taken its toll on him. Also notice how the color of the scene is neutral. Where the older movies tended to make the “heroes” bright and the “enemy” darker. This scene shows how you can convey emotion without the need for dialogue or narration. And you really do not have to put images “right in the face” of the viewer to make them feel an emotion.
The song was composed by John Williams and was titled “Hymn to the Fallen”.
I used to every morning while taking a break do my Lumosity exercises while listening to my daily podcasts. The public Wi-Fi spot I able to use has become an unreliable signal. It was upsetting when the connection was lost during one of these sessions. I cannot use the company’s computer to do them because there are strict controls for their use. I am pretty sure if I even told you that if I even turned one on. I may have to kill you. It sounds extreme. But someday it might happen someday.
I downloaded the Tetris app for my Kindle. I know originally I wanted to keep games off it. But I have found it useful to kill time usually waiting in lines. I never get interrupted. However, reading a book will assure an interruption.
I know the game seems simple. I still do not know how they can make a movie about it?
I was playing this morning. I got to thinking about what it may be representing. The metaphor.
You move the pieces to places you think the fit the best.
You make adjustments based on the previous moves along with trying to anticipate the next one coming up.
The speed, pace and time of the game is always working against you.
The game is not over because the pieces do not fit.
The game is over when the “spaces” between the pieces becomes “unmanageable”.
And then it is time for a change.
That title is clearly a Major Understatement.
But then again what really is “right in the head” when it comes down to it.
The Middle East has been “misbehaving” my whole life. Test scores have always been low. The economy has always been “teetering” on the edge. People have always been protesting for change. And finding less of it. It would be nice if they would be an example of the change the want to have happen. There is no way the Psychology and Plastic Surgery Special Interest will allow that to happen. Nor are the majority of people giving up their “reasons to drink”.
It is weird where people are better planned for the “Zombie Apocalypse”. And they are all going to better than average when it comes to being able to survive it. Given what I said previously here. This is the most likely outcome. It is not the food and water that will disappear first. It will be the toilet paper and the diapers because most of these people will be “shitting” themselves. Figuratively and Literally.
What can I say? My mind just wanders about.
I just need to find humor where it should be. But it is there.
Yesterday was two years since my dad passed away. I did not realize at the time how much more I would have to let go with his passing. The details I will leave out here. I also remember the jokes I was making at the time to be able to deal with it. It was quiet day here for the most part. Except for the Bills losing to the Chargers. I was flipping channels and the local PBS station was playing an old Tom Lehrer concert. I only caught the last song. I will just say it “appropriately inappropriate” given me head space.
My family will never admit to it. But I think Dad would have chuckled a bit at the song.