Going Back to the Drawing Board

It has been a while since I have been posting to this blog. I have been in a lot of deep thoughts and other issues over the last 2-3 months. For example, I was wondering this thought. Whatever happened to Steve Guttenberg? And the Internet provided the answer. My mind does wander to some REALLY strange thoughts for time to time.

I have been studying this chart I found that also mimics my own personal evolution (or lack thereof).

(It is a pretty simple explanation.)

I have also been watching movies lately. They have made me think more about making a career change. I want to become a pizza delivery guy. It is refreshing to know that there are women out there who appreciate good prompt service. And they are willing to give a nice tip. Finally, when the transaction is completed they do not have any appearance of regret. Just admiration. Life seems so grand in the movies.

The reality it seems that I have been doing a series of experiments in order to have submissions for “F My Life”. I will spare the details. This is not the forum for them.

I write with music playing in the background. I may come off as a quiet person. I just do not deal well with silence. I usually link to a clip to link to in order to play will you are reading the post. I know I have a wide range of taste when it comes to music. I have been putting this blog off for way too long. However, it does not mean I have not been thinking about this posting. It has been a long time. And that means the music list grew long. So this posting is your choice if you choose to listen.

MUSIC: Dream Theater, Perfect Circle, Sponge, Rollins Band, Husker Du, Pearl Jam, Mastodon, The Headstones, Moist

Now I need to deal with the “Elephant” in my apartment. It begs the question. And given the place’s current condition. How the hell did he find any place to stand? And why can’t he at least be useful while standing there?

The “Elephant” here is my writing. And it needs more on the output side.

I am trying to get back to writing. I have started to carry a small notebook with me during the day. I use to write down ideas. I also use it to make notes about thinks I see and hear during the day. Books, websites, podcasts etc I need to remember to check out. It is basically, a copy of my own Rorschach test of what is going on in my head.

I have always had a problem with getting feedback and acknowledgment of my writing works. However, I cannot control that aspect at all. It is an external factor. I can control (or at least attempt to) the internal need to write ideas out. I may not achieve great vast recognition. The problem is when I am not writing then I am denying myself. And this has been going on for way too long.
I going to paraphrase a passage from PJ O’Rourke‘s book Driving Like Crazy. An adventure has two great parts to it. The beginning and when it is all over with at the end. It is the middle part that can and most likely scares the crap out of you. This sums up my website at the moment. I am not sure where it is going to end. I had energy at the beginning. But right now I am in the middle. And needless to say I am bit confused at the moment. I just renewed the site. But part of me was wondering why. I wanted the site to create opportunities. The thing is I wish I was a bit more on the clever side than I am perceived to be. I wish I could create something that I can at least put on a t-shirt and sell. So you are asking is what I am doing all about “merchandising”. I just want to be able to make a living doing something other than the current source of my income. My website is the “door” to that reality.

This is why I need to go back to drawing board. I need to and I am in the process of rethinking my website.

And I need help to do it.

I am looking for someone who is able to reformat the look of the site. I need a completely new template from which to work with. If that means an entirely new program to work with for the site then that is fine with me. I am willing to learn. I just need to find someone who is capable and willing to teach.

I want to take my website to the 2.0 version.

       www.foleywrites.com

I need suggestion. But I also need guidance in how to make them happen. It can be very frustrating sitting alone with a computer manual trying to figure out how to do it. Yelling “What the Fuck?!” at the computer screen has yet to provide any real technical answers.

My first priority is to write.

I need help to implement the writing into a better website presentation.

I guess you do get a chance for a “do over”. Staying the course seems to only apply to bad foreign policy and stimulus packages. But I do not want to go there.

I can create the “Second Act”. And if need be the third, fourth, fifth and so on.

MOVIE SPOILER (DO NOT read on if you have not seen) There is a scene near the end of the latest Star Trek movie. The Young Spock meets up with the future and older Spock. Young Spock has spent the whole movie trying to come to terms to which ideology he is going to live his life by. He is trying to come terms to being half human, half Vulcan and on top of it a member of Star Fleet. The future and older Spock tells him to basically take the whole idea of an all encompassing ideology and “throw it away”. In other words, to have a full life he must learn to “just enjoy the ride” but remember there will always be challenges.

I am not looking for an all encompassing ideology for my writing.

I just need a better idea about it.

And yet a better to present it.

If you can and are willing to help then please contact me.