Will Resiliency Prevail At Some Point in Time?

I wrote in my last posting about how was trying to reconfigure my website. I have been trying to reconstruct all the notes I have made over the last few months. I am attempting this so my site will lead to more opportunities. I was searching the Internet looking for some inspiration for ideas to help the website. I need to find some way to provide additional funding for this site. I do not qualify for any government bailout funds even though I am paying for them. I changed my name and rank to “General Motors” and still got nothing in the way of funding. So I started searching the Internet for possible ideas. The Internet is vast source of information. And this is what I came across as a possibility.

 
I have a college degree. A degree that came with abundance of earned credit points. It may even qualify me as being intelligent or at least having the appearance of being intelligent.

Here is a hint on how to appear to be smart. Print a lot of certificates and diplomas and hang them on your wall. Paperwork confuses people all the time. Also wearing a suit is a good disguise in this endeavor.

But I come across something that contains titillating, sophomoric humor and I go to the Dark Side of the Force. For those of you who are betting people. Here is the score “intelligence” will always be trumped by “easily amused”. TV Guide will back this fact up. In other words, stupidity is funny.

But I need to switch gears now and try to seek some on the more “intelligent” side. (Maybe)

A few weeks ago, I re-read the book Deep Survival by Laurence Gonzalez (I mentioned this book in a previous post). I came across this quote that has stuck with me over the last few weeks. It is appropriate for my current status. It comes from St. Paul. “One must work out his own salvation with a sense of fear and trembling”. I am not sure where this quote is exactly in the Bible. I tried to find the exact reference quote. However, I was out of Endust to undercover my copy of the Bible. Somehow, karma is going to get back at me for me for that one. Is this what I need? Having two different religious principles coming together to “fix my ass”.

I am in the midst of questioning and readjusting my thinking on to what I “think” I know. I also came upon this talk from Mike Rowe. He is the star of the TV show Dirty Jobs.

 
Here is the link to the episode that made him question his thinking. It is a bit gross. Yet still finds a way to be funny. (I am on the “Dark Side”. Again)

You should avoid people who are not willing to examine their own beliefs from time to time. People who do not do examine their beliefs are zealots. And full of shit. And tend to be very dangerous people. You can adjust your views to life. Remember, at one point if your life you were completely happy in shitting your diapers. And yet you do not look forward to those days returning.

This reminds me of Edward R. Murrow’s statement to his radio series This I Believe. I have to remember there is not one all encompassing answer to all of life’s problems/challenges on Earth.

I want to be more resilient in regards to my own writing endeavors. It is hard at times. It is hard when you do not get any direct feedback on how the writing is being interpreted. Web statistics and search engines only give you a number. Not a person. I am like anyone else. I want whatever I am doing to be recognized. I want to be engaged. There is a major difference between being talked “about” and being talked “to”. It just taken a little longer to find the second part than I thought it would.

You will never know if you were resilient until the event is over with. It is a hard notion to gauge when you are in the midst of the action. I can’t see the forest for all the trees. Or is it vice versa?

I am like anyone else I want to be inspired. And I want to aspire to something greater than myself. In other words, I want the writing to take on a life of its own. And in the process have a better life. But still I will still need a maid or least a woman willing to wear the uniform. (Kidding)(Maybe not)(Applications now be accepted)

There are times I need to feel inspired from sources outside of myself. The evening news is sure not going to be able to do it. So I usually watch a movie. The movie was Apollo 13. “Houston. We have a problem” is the quote most people associate with the movie. I think this is the scene that sets up what the movie deep down is all about.

The last line in this scene is the real quote of the movie that sums of the theme of the story.

So all I say is…

Here is to white knuckles and safety equipment.

And I am going to attempt to enjoy the ride.

I do not have choice on this one.