There has been a lot of yelling and screaming about illegal aliens coming to this country. Even Stephen Hawking chimed in on the matter. He stated that if aliens from another planet (the ones that are lot farther away than Mexico) came to Earth there would be a lot of problems. People would lose their shit on a level never seen on this planet. Not even on the Jerry Springer Show or political protest rally. Aliens would bring us even more problems such as violence and diseases. So this means the aliens are also watching CNN or Fox News. And they are thinking “Hey! That sounds like a place we would easily fit right into.” But we should listen to the warnings. And most likely we won’t. But we should take the time to listen even though Stephen Hawking’s “Speak and Spell” voice can be a bit creepy to listen too. However, it maybe the right sounding voice for this matter. Remember, E.T. hotwired a Speak and Spell to allow, “E.T. phone home.” I guess the Professor may have a better cell phone plan to call out of his network to reach the alien worlds. Hey, this Professor is better than the other one and his coconut radio. And that professor would be totally useless trying to fix the hole in the ship for space travel. Don’t call yourself a genius if fixing a hole is engineering beyond your abilities.

I am a member of generation that was raised on repeated viewing of Star Wars movies and weekly episodes of various incarnations of Star Trek. We have the idea that traveling through space could actually be a fun adventure. You can’t defeat the “Evil Galactic Empire” sitting on your own home planet. We also want to be having philosophical discussions of the role man vs. the “Prime Directive.”

My generation was also repeated watched the Sylvester Stallone‘s Rocky and Rambo movie series. (But we will not admit to it. But secretly when no one is watching we want to run the steps in Philly). So our mind have access to variety of images and speeches to rally us when the “odds are against us”. We have this deeply vague notion in the back of our psyche that we can machine gun our way through 12 rounds to achieve victory. So, BRING IT ON!

But we also live in a time where the culture is to sue over every minor injury. “You can’t cry over spilled milk.” But that never stopped a lawyer from filing suit. “Crying over hot coffee spilled in your lap after you distracted drove into a pothole” makes you able to have a payout from the McDonald’s corporation.

We talk a good game. Walking the line is something else all together. But like foreign policy. It does not stop us from acting out. We saw Aliens. We are cheering for a fight.

(The following is another example of how I failed to grasp my Catholic education. I cannot directly quote Scripture. But I can repeat quotes from Star Wars)

In the moment of challenge, remember the wisdom of Yoda. “Do or Do not. There is no try

(Catholic education needs to invest in puppets and better special effects. It is just a suggestion. But you really need to capture an audience’s attention. Wait! That sounds like the premise behind a cult.)

 

 

Listen. If you are going to captain your own ship. And you decide to have a co-pilot to come along on the ride with you. Then you need to make sure that you have a well defined “chain of command” structure. You cannot have anyone pulling any rank on you on your ship. No matter whom they think they are or in fact actually are. If you don’t that is when the trouble begins on your ship.

The preceding message was to prove that God has a sense of humor. And if I am going to write things like that then my soul needs to have a disclaimer clause attached to it. And for those of you who think that God does not have a sense of humor. And find any attempt to point out God’s laugh factor to be sacrilegious. Do the following. Take a look in the mirror. And then take a look at the person you are with. Humor is a cruel lesson in life.

I am on this semi-religion kick after watching this season’s episodes of Lost. And I am trying to remember the story behind the names of Biblical and mythological characters they are referencing. And I am hoping to decode the story line of the show to see if I am going to right about the finale. The answer is…Probably not.

The headlines are filled once again with the usual suspects of crazy religious people running amuck in our world. It is funny they all preach that their “God” is one of peace. But somehow they seem to be caught with a shit load of guns and explosives. Then again I am willing to listen very carefully to anyone with a gun to my head. It does not seem like a good time to point out the flaws in their message of “peace”. But I think they are using the wrong word for “peace”. I looked up “peace” in the dictionary. The meaning of the word does not include .22, .45, .357, M-16, AK-47, etc. Check the spell checker. You may be thinking “Piece”.

God may exist in some other world as a single being. However, God on Earth with his many “only” spokespeople does not work per say. On Earth, with all of these people “God” comes off looking like a just another big bureaucracy. That means is there is lot of confusing and redundant paperwork. Ridiculously high fees. And the customer service call center is located in India too. I find it hard to believe I am talking to man named “Bob” there. God may have to consider downsizing his workforce here too. Everyone else is. So he will not look out of place. I must be crazier with that last thought. With all the religious wars being fought around the world. And I am thinking God needs to be even more competitive in the marketplace.

Here is my own personal prayer to God.

Please have a sense of humor. Please have a sense of humor. Please have a sense of humor. Please have a sense of humor. Please have a sense of humor. Please have a sense of humor.

If not. Please make it quick.


On a clear and starry night as you look up into the sky, you do begin to ponder your significance in this world. Are you part of something bigger than yourself? Or are you just a small speck that is easily overlooked? It is hard not to question your views on philosophy and religion. Nietzsche was right when he said, “As you stare into the abyss the abyss is staring back at you.”

What are you connected to? And all of the other questions related to it come to mind too. These thoughts have been racing through my head for a while now. I think they started about the time I received the announcement of my high school reunion. I made up an excuse and skipped it. High school seems to be “another time in a galaxy that is far away”. I was a quiet person in high school too. And most of the significant events in my life at the time took place outside of there. What do you have to really say to people who were not there for them? And of all the events in one’s life why are the high school years the one people want to reunite for? Maybe it is to say that you can be a survivor of post traumatic stress. The popular cultural take on high school is that it sucks. Just watch the movies about high school alone. Maybe high school reunion is to say time and space somehow changes the outcome. Who knows? And like any other tradition the one who started the idea of high school reunion should be treated as a “suspect”. There are events in your life best left to the past. Hindsight maybe 20/20. But do you really want to always be looking back?

I have also been listening to Roger Waters’ 1987 album Radio K.A.O.S. It is a concept album. It is the story of a handicap young man who has the ability to hear radio waves. He makes friends with a radio DJ and tries to reach out to the world. In the end, he hacks into the military computers and fakes the world that all the nuclear bombs have been launched all at once. Can’t you tell the 80′s foreign policy was an influence on this album? I would link to the songs but it is better to listen to this album as a whole. It reminds me of a time when people did tune into a radio to hear music and talk to the DJ between songs. Radio used to have a community sense to it. Today, for the most part it is just repetitive and overly argumentative programming.

I am not sure if there is anything we will tune into en masse every again. Sadly, it will be a horrific, mass tragedy. I am beginning to think that the Super Information Highway is becoming like the car drive on a normal highway. The only time we slow down to notice anyone else is at the scene of an accident. And even fewer stop to actually help someone out. There is a lot of information available on the Internet but the only sites that seem to get a lot of traffic are the ones showing someone who failed in a spectacular way. But I will admit it is really entertaining.

Mass communication is miraculous accomplishment when you think of the speed and the scale in which it is happening. However, there may be an overload of output sources. How many e-mail addresses, phone numbers, Twitters, Facebook accounts are effective to have in the end? Remember there was a time that when the phrase “Googling yourself” was code for masturbation. Now you are actually cross checking how you are referenced on the Web. And chances are you are still being called a “jack off”. Nothing really changes that much. Just the terminology has.

Everyone is running around trying to find that “voice” that speaks for them. They are trying to find their own channel out there. Tuning in. Tuning out. A mouse click is same as channel surfing the dial.

Social networks are the rage. But are they making anyone feel closer? I think the Newton’s Laws of Motion really applies to the nature of human relations when it is all broken down.

I am going to admit that I do like checking Facebook updates. I have learned more about what some of my friends are doing in the last year. Quantity is up. But the quality is about the same. I do not want that to seem like a necessarily bad thing. It is what is. People are as opened or as closed on the Internet as they are in real life. The idea that people recreate themselves in cyberspace seems a bit flawed. However, I do not play Mafia Wars, World of War Craft, or Second Life online so my research is a bit lacking on the topic.

I also watched the movie Crash again. It is a story about how people are connected in ways they are not even aware of.

I think this movie got me thinking again about how and why people are connected or not.

I have to admit to take some time now and then to scan who know who on Facebook. It is kind of funny who really knows who. There is a dark side at times to this. It includes free time, a couple of beverages and the search engine. And trying to figure out how the people you know came together and a part. And the cycle continues like it always does. It reminds me of lesson from a human communications class I took. It is the concept of relationship maintenance. Our intentions may be well placed however we only have the ability to hold meaningful relations with a small fraction of the people we know. There is no tool that can expand that ability. But still we want to know more people anyways. This is why we have unlimited calling plans on our phones. It the end, we are spinning around this universe in some way. This is why we need insurance. We are going to crash in some fashion. One way or another.
Now it is time to cue up the music.



This posting has been influenced by personal experience with Facebook postings. It has also been influenced by the podcast Keith and the Girl. I listen to it every morning at work. It is one of the best produced podcast out there on the Internet. It is explicit, rude and sometimes can get very socially unacceptable. The truth is that it is very funny, more importantly it is very honest. If you can handle it you should become a fan too. The host Keith is very critical of social websites. People are complaining that MySpace is too childish. So they are going to Facebook to escape it. Yet on Facebook people are constantly sending fake drinks, foods and other nonexistent gifts. (Sounds childish?) As Keith says, “Someone sent me a picture of a Mahito drink…O.K….What the fuck am I suppose to do it with it now? …How about sending me a real drink? …Asshole.” I get the same things sent to me by well meaning friends. Friends I feel have too much free time. I know. It is the thought that counts. So I am now going to send those photos of foods on to websites for starving children in Third World countries. The thought should make them feel better. I am such a humanitarian. But somehow you are going to be confused and think that I am the asshole. I guess it is all about the context.

The other thing is I get a lot of postings of the results of friends’ online pop psychology quizzes. Guess which 80′s movie I am. Guess which food I am. Guess which cartoon character I am. My top 5 books, movies, TV shows, etc. And the list goes on and on. And so does the listings on my Facebook Wall. I guess they can be fun. I feel out of courtesy you should maybe do only ONE a day. Better yet one a week. How about setting a specific page where it is the only place where the results are posted. There have been a lot of news reports on how people are not getting the jobs they want because of what they post on their Facebook accounts. The potential employer sees a photo of a guy in his college days doing a beer bong. Who didn’t do ones of those in college? The photo of a female during spring break is seen “popping her hood” to win a t-shirt. Doesn’t that seem ironic? However, I do not think that is the problem employers are having is they see the page from a person who is telling them they are a “hard worker”. However, the same person posted over a dozen results from various pop psychology quizzes. The employer is seeing a person with a lot of free time on their hands. And this person may have the potential to go “gun waving crazy in the break room” if they take these quizzes and their answers seriously.

Pop culture is something we cannot escape. No matter what we think. We are neither above it nor below it. We are right in the middle of it. However, our relationship to any specific aspect of pop culture is constantly changing. Our experiences with it changes. Also what we need from it changes. It has some sense of relevance unless it has been organized into some type of “retro night”. Please whenever possible avoid them. I guess everybody goes through phases where they need to do some sort of analysis on themselves. They need to take some sort of barometric reading on the state of their circumstances. They more tests there are the more dissection of themselves. And all of these dissections will provide more foundation for a valid answer whatever it maybe. I think people take these tests and want to steer each question to a specific answer. Once again the relevance is based more on the desired outcome. People want more of the illusion rather than the cold hard facts. Everyone wants to be reaffirmed about how they perceive themselves. Take this example. Here is the test. What would your stripper name be? I am going to guess it is going to be exotic and unusual. As a stripper name should be. We do not want reality because it does not work. No one is paying for a stripper named “Low Self Esteem”, “Coke Whore” or “Daddy Issues”. We want the illusion. However, we just cannot say it directly. So we call it advertising. I am guessing if you take more than a few of these types of tests then you are looking for a bigger answer than these tests will provide.

 I am not above this need to dissect my own psyche. If I was above it then I would not be writing a blog. I am always dissected myself. As being some type of writer I am always looking out at the world and culture and making judgment calls about it. I just don’t take multiple guess quizzes trying to determine an answer to what I see. I get the “prompt” in other words the “question”. And from there I attempt to find the answer. Remember those tests are created by others. And your answers are irrelevant in the scheme of things.

That all being said.


I am still not above all of it, the analysis, dissection and worse of all the nostalgia.
Which 80′s movie represents you? (In this case. Me.)

Given my age the answer should probably be a John Hughes movie. Like the Breakfast Club. How cliché. Or maybe it is The Outsiders.

I heard this song on my MP3 player. It comes from a movie soundtrack I had loaded on it.

MUSIC: Concrete Blonde (covering Leonard Cohen)


 

It is amazing that in a sad way that this song still has relevance to the time. This version is from the soundtrack for the movie Pump Up the Volume. (It was also the first movie in which I bought the soundtrack for. And after this movie, I also pay attention to how the soundtrack is assembled.) This movie is the story about a teenager who becomes underground hero/spokesperson on a pirate radio station. Christian Slater plays a quiet kid who is socially awkward and trying to find his place in a new school. He creates this persona called “Happy Harry Hard-on”. Every night, he broadcasts through the community on his pirate radio station. The technology may have changed over the last twenty years. However, the method and desire are the same. People create screen names and post blogs and podcasts using created persona names. Everyone has an opinion and an insight they know if they put their real face on will lead to a lot of trouble.

Here is a clip.

I also know the movie was released in 1990. I was never good a math so give a little slack here.

This movie also turned me on to the Lenny Bruce autobiography How to Talk Dirty and Influence People.

 To end.

I wish one day pop culture would embrace my writings in mass so I can officially quit my day job. It is not selling out. It is selling to.

But I will compromise on this matter of pop culture tests. If there is a test for “Which type of turd are you?” I will take it.

Happy?

I know I read a lot of books most people out there will never read. I am not doing it to point that I have an intellect. I am not saying that I am necessarily a smart person even. As I said, I need to keep reading to help the writing. I need to apply my reading to what I am writing. One of my favorite writers is David Mamet. A few weeks ago, I read his book entitled Bambi vs. Godzilla: On the Nature, Purpose, and the Practice of the Movie Business. I also found an interview with him on the Internet. I was struck by how he was able to apply his vast readings to the interview.

I need to read books about the human condition and its nature. It helps me to flesh out better characters for my writing. The thing I have been coming to realize more and more is that people are strange interlocking of positive and negative traits and actions. The essence of a good character is that the person has strengths balanced on flaws. It is also why many of our public figures intriguing and annoying at the same time.

The other thing is that I have amassed a wide range of books over the years. Once again, let me say I am not trying to show off my intellect. I am just trying to reveal the works that have gone into my own. The one type of book I try to avoid is any that would be considered a textbook. Here is a warning. If you ever walk into a person’s office and all he has on his bookshelves is textbooks you should run away. One way to save money on education is to throw away all the textbooks. I was once a professional student. I had to buy a lot of textbooks. There is maybe 2-5 of them I still have for reference. They are for the most part useless. The only reason people write textbooks is to impress other idiots who write them too. I have a conspiracy theory about textbooks too. The textbook industry is secretly being funded by bed makers and chiropractors. If you read one you will need a place to sleep and you will eventually need a spinal realignment from hauling them around. One more comment on education. I have been around long enough to realize people have always been complaining about how we DO NOT spend on education. It is never enough. The reason is society on a whole really does not value education. We do not put enough effort into it at the beginning and we then overprice it at the end.

I want to point out a book that I have just read that has made me look at people and their actions different. It had the same effect on me as the book Freakonomics did on me. The book is Blunder: Why Smart People Make Bad Decisions by Zachary Shore. It is about how people fall into various cognitive traps. I have two quotes from this book I want to point out.”…Expertise is a very good thing, but it is not the same thing as sound judgment regarding strategy and policy.” The other quote is, “History is an unforgiving laboratory. Its experiments can be only run once, and never again under precisely the same conditions.” They are both good reminders for our times. Just remember that ever crisis throughout history has had an “expert” in charge when it was happening. The captain of the Titanic had 30 years of experience.

We are flawed and we find extraordinary ways to fail.

This week, I learned that an idiot used the 911 system for customer service complaints.

I know our present economy is more of a challenge than a crisis for most of the people in this country. I also know the entire economy will never turn around based on my personal spending. In fact, my personal finances make me seem insignificant on a whole based on macro economics. It almost led me to have a personal existential identity crisis. I can only go forward regardless. The economics of today were the results of many, many years of various policies. One stimulus bill put together in a couple of weeks is not going to undo things in the matter of weeks. Economies take a lot of time to adjust. I am not sure where I heard this from. There is an old cavalry quote, “When in doubt…gallop.” And guess what a lot of horses leave behind.

The world is hard to comprehend. People create fiction whether it is a book or movie so they can make sense of our present world. An example I think is the movie Gladiator has more to say about American politics than it does the Roman Empire. I was trying to think about a character that embodies our fear of the future and the confusion of our present moment.

This is the character and the situation that I think that represents American society today. Play the clip. (It was the best example I could find. Quality was a distant second.)


 

Godzilla was a creature created by the atomic bomb. (The mistake of our past) It come back to reap destruction on man. Godzilla represents the future because it is big and scary. It is also an unknown force. And nobody knows if in any sense of reality its existence is inevitable. The future is basically the unknown monster. In the movies, no one knows how to really how to deal with it. The population runs around in mass panic. No one has a good plan of action. Sound familiar? Watch the evening news. They are basically broadcasting a “monster movie”. And being able to “Beat the monsters” does not make for good evening news. News outlets need to sell the problem not the answer. It is also the mantra behind any political campaign.

Somehow, knowing all of this (I think) I will try to be a bit more optimistic.


Maybe there is an “innocent” than can beat the “monster”. Like possibly Bambi.


 

 

I now have to re-read Victor Frankl’s Man’s Search for Meaning.

I just wish someone could express the purpose to all of this.

MUSIC: Audioslave

My friend Mike sent me a link to a site called Mindmeister. It is a site for mapping out one’s mind. I really have not had the time to really delve into the site. He said it would be a good way to organize my thoughts in regards to my writing. It may be true and I might do it. However, I am a little suspicious of his motivation. I think he is just trying to “build the case against me”. And he just does not have the time to do the investigative work himself. If the state is going to prosecute you they have to do some “legwork” first. They do not have the ability to just have you fill out a survey so they can prosecute for your answers. It does not work like that in the court system. The tax system is another story.

Let me attempt a try at giving you an explanation of how my mind may work. I am by nature a curious person. This led me to a lot of trouble in my early education years. It also was scarred by being in a Catholic school. We were always being told that we had to have something to read or do quietly whenever we finished our class work. I was always in trouble for what I brought to school to read. Comic books, MAD magazine, etc. I was never told “Why” they were bad. If you are not going to explain “why” then you will never be able to satisfy a curious person. In fact, over time your lack of explanation feeds a rebellious tendency in that person. The answer, “Because I said so!” is the response of a person on seriously out of control personal power trip. For those of you who have been known to play a drinking game from time to time. It is the basis of the drinking game called Asshole. It does not require skill. It is more about having an arbitrary position.

I have a visual mind and usually see things through images. This is why I failed at math throughout my school years. I do not see “numbers” as an example. I can look at pictures and assemble things from them. This is one of my mom’s favorite stories about me when I was about two years old. I was a quiet kid who did not speak a lot. I could build things though. I used the color patterns on the rug in the dining room to build “roads” for my Matchbox and Hot Wheels cars. My grandparents bought me a big can of Tinker Toys. This was a toy you build things with using various sticks and connectors. I now feel old when I realize my toys as a child required as a goal that I put them together myself. This does not seem to be as true now days. Tinker Toys came with a small booklet of things you can build with the various sticks and connectors. So for the next week or so I sat down and built them all. I just looked at the picture and then the pieces. And from there I put them together. The instructions started with simple things and progressed to more complicated ones which required all of the pieces. I eventually worked up to those. I built the most complicated one and showed it off to my mom. She looked at it and thought that I had not put it together right. I looked her and without saying a word showed her the picture in the instruction book. She studied it and realized that I indeed had assembled correctly.

I will now lay blame to biggest influence on my childhood imagination. The first time I ever saw a movie that felt that it looked like the imagination in my head was Star Wars. I remember just sitting glued into my seat at the movie theater. It caught my imagination hard. A few months later, when the toys were coming out I was completely into it. I would go to school and just draw out Star Wars pictures and the after school go home and act out the scenes with my toy action figures. I would come up with new stories every time I would get a new figure. In fact, I bought certain ones based on the ideas of which stories I wanted to tell next. The problem was in second grade I would rather draw the stories then do my real school work. I would be constantly yelled and told such use of my time was a waste. I also discovered comic books. I like that I could see how images and words worked together. And this is why films fascinate me. But I could never successfully explain to my teacher why it was not a waste of time. That is called back talking. I had quite a few walks to the principal’s office. My footprints will be forever etched into that floor. However, I realize that the teacher had no imagination (most of them do not anyways). Those who can’t…teach. I still read Star Wars novels and watch the movies because I am still discovering things about them. It is a very dense story. There are many facets to it. I wish when I was kid there was Wookieepedia. I read the book about a decade ago called Star Wars: The Magic of Myth by Mary Henderson. It is about the elements that make up the story of Star Wars itself. It kept referencing the book The Hero with a Thousand Faces by Joseph Campbell. He explores how man has been writing and rewriting the same story since man was able to write. This is how it works for me. I find something that fuels my imagination and then I want more information about it.

I am trying to become a better writer. And that will be the goal until the end. Stephen King in his book On Writing said, “If you do not have the time to read. Then you do not have the time to write. Because you do not have the tools to write.” Here is another example of the mind in action. I like a good story. I like the story even better if there is strong character development. This is why I enjoy the Spenser series from author Robert Parker. It was the influence behind the Spenser: For Hire TV series. He has strong characters and he does not get caught up in using many words to tell the story. Spenser is man who no matter what will solve the case even when he is told to stay away. he has principals and a belief in them. Author Stephen Hunter created the character of Bobby Lee Swagger that he used in several of his novels. Swagger is a former army sniper who gets caught in situation that fall into the category of “right man at the wrong time”. I just read his latest appearance in the novel The 47th Samurai. I will not go into the plot details. I just want to point out how I find things that make me curious and I want find out more. In the book, Swagger studies Japanese samurai culture by watching that genre of films. So now a few of those titles  such as Twilight Samurai, The 47 Ronin and When the Last Sword is Drawn will go into the Netflix queue. There was also the mention of a book entitled The Nobility of Failure. And I am trying to locate a copy to read. I think it could provide some enlightenment for some other thoughts in my head.

This is how it works in a nutshell. I find a good story. I then try to find some details about elements that went into story. And from there I want to see how it all contributed to final “assembly” of the story. On top of it all, westerns, kung fu and samurai films are the ones that seem to be grabbing my attention at the moment. So you have been warned.

I know most people will not read a book or watch a movie that I mentioned. It would take some effort on their part. We are in a world where knowledge seems to be condensed into quick sound bites. And this is not what I am about. I know most people want to be told what to read or see. They do not want to empower themselves with a sense of discovery. They base their quest for knowledge more on what they know rather than what they do not know. I know I will never get to control the “remote” for the masses nor do I want to. I know I do get choose the station, book, movie or the event. So be it. I like how I am trying to discover things. Speaking of which. Last year, I went on a few ghost hunts. You can believe it or not. I did see and hear things. However, as is very common in such situations the evidence did not show up on film. But my X-Files Quest will continue. Does anyone out there know of a good area in the Northeast United States for a UFO hunt?

In the end, I am just attempting to layout a map. But to be truthful, I am not sure how the map works all the time. If I did then I am afraid it will ruin all of the magic.